I don’t quite remember how the conversation
came about.
I don’t even quite remember if it was in
one of those long empty main streets in Khalifa City, surrounded by dirty
sandlots and residential compounds, or in that one long empty avenue in
Margarita Island, surrounded by trees and sculptures which adorned the space
between the two ways of the road. I remember the sky was a calm after-school blue.
But the banality of the setting is
irrelevant. What’s really relevant is that I was talking to my mom in the car.
I’ve always seen my mom and I still see her as a very progressive person. She
always speaks of not being able to identify with the things that other
Venezuelans usually talk about and not being able to identify with it all. I
always saw her as somebody who was progressive and accepting. Because of that
what she said on that day actually shocked me. The conversation that afternoon drifted
towards sexuality and I was mentioning the case of somebody that I knew who was
bisexual. She snapped. She said “that’s not natural.” The way biology works, is
to support heterosexual couples. That’s how we reproduce. That’s how the human
race survives. I then mentioned how at one point I thought I was homosexual.
She murmured and kept looking at the road. “That’s not natural.”
Every time a conversation about how Latin
American societies are not very open to the idea of non-heterosexual couples I
think back to this incident. I still think my mother is a really progressive
and open-minded person, and in fact, if I asked her about this topic now, after
the rise in LGBTQ movements that have happened over the last two-to-three
years, and in a setting different drive in a lazy afternoon, she might say
something different. But it shows how ingrained heteronormative relationships
are in the collective mind of the society I’m from. While in Venezuela I don’t
remember meeting a single person who was not heterosexual, and to this day the
idea of someone who isn’t is something that strikes me as hard to deal with.
Not because I reject the idea of a non-heterosexual orientation, but simply
because I’ve never had to deal with it and it’s just different. Unusual. Queer.
In Stacy Wolf’s book A Problem Like
Maria about the possibility of interpreting the famous musical The Sound
of Music from a lesbian or feminist point of view, she first provides an
overview of how throughout history, musical theater has mainly focused on
heteronormative narratives. “The musical appears to reflect the dominant values
of the culture: conservative, sexist, and homophobic.”1 “In most
cases, the message of musicals is that heterosexuality is both natural and
mandatory and that women should know their place.”1 (p9) This is the
common interpretation of the narratives of many popular American musicals,
including The Sound of Music. But as Stacy Wolf says, it is possible to
interpret things in a different way. “There is no ‘natural’ way to read a text”2
(p25) People will always find different meanings in things, according to their
culture, their personal history, and the ideas they have been exposed to; and
Stacy Wolf wrote a 200+ page book about how it is possible to interpret The
Sound of Music as a lesbian/feminist narrative, as opposed to the
traditional heteronormative interpretation most viewers would associate with it.
In her book, Stacy Wolf discusses more than
just the way in which The Sound of Music can be interpreted as a queer
narrative through the strength of the main character Maria. I found it really
interesting that Wolf quotes Alexander Doty and Corey Creekmur saying that “queerness
is ‘at the core of mainstream culture even though that that culture tirelessly
insists that its images ideologies and readings [are] always only about heterosexuality.’”3
(p31-32) She mentions that “many men in musicals are constructed as feminine,
if not gay.”4 (p41) These ideas lead to the idea that musicals
provide a stage for performing queerness. Song is not something that is limited
to a stage. Song is something that invades our everyday life, something that
any human being with a voice can engage in if they wish to. And this allows us
to impersonate things that we would normally not. This does not necessarily
make much difference; I remember singing the song “I Feel Pretty” from
Bernstein’s West Side Story and clearly enunciating the line “I feel
pretty and witty and gay,” literally saying “I feel gay” when I was still 15
and me and my friends from school would obviously laugh at that stuff. But the
song was catchy, and so we would sing that. We would impersonate Maria (from West
Side Story), a female character singing about how she is in love with a
guy. It does not necessarily affect us; me and my friends still remain heterosexual
(as far as I know), but that does not remove the fact that we did that. In a
sense, one starts to become more accepting of things like queerness, by doing
in a performance that allows you to engage with it. Wolf has convinced me that
musicals are really a central part of queer expression and culture.
Except that according to Wolf it isn’t. As
she said, it’s mainly heteronormative narratives. But the point is that one can
see it differently. Regardless of whether or not being heterosexual is truly the
“natural” thing to do, non-heterosexual orientations exist, and it is a fact
that we can no longer deny. Because of that, it is important that we become
more accepting of these perspectives. We cannot force such a large group of
people (LGBTQ) to hide away their desires. Becoming more accepting of LGBTQ
people is a well-marked step towards global acceptance of people. Towards world
peace. Ok, maybe not that far. But it certainly allows for the creation of a
more open-minded world to live in. This is why it is important to be able to
view certain narratives as being from a group that is less represented. We
learn more about the group, and eventually become more accepting of the group.
Dear Carlos,
ReplyDeleteThis is a fantastic response. One of your best. You begin with your own subject position - as an young adult whose identity is in part formed by his parents' progressive politic and who is experience the limits to that progressive stance. What is the danger of questioning ones sexuality (and, it seems, not even acting on it?). You are taught that your parents will not entertain that as a conversation and that feelings, desires and longings have to be directed a certain way.
But Wolf explains that those feelings, desires and longings are not necessarily redirected. They are just suppressed in certain conversations and with certain people. And when there is a repressive atmosphere, one looks to places where one can piece together images, self stylings with with one can identify. For her, the musical stage does not only make the heterosexual love narrative much more minimal - its the place where a women can dominate, vocally, physically and step outside the feminine conventions of domestic drama. So she looks to those forms to fashion herself and see other stylings of desire which she can adapt to her own life. I'm interested in the moments in your response where you write that singing Maria doesn't really change anything - for Wolf argues that it does. It may not change how the object of your sexual desires but it does let you occupy another person's subject position -- you momentarily give up the conventions of masculinity and take up a feminized view, with other men. The infectiousness of the musical gives you permission to open up that space - with others. And "being a girl" becomes a possible way to express being male. These experiences count argues Wolf - not only for her who wants to find evidence of lesbian desire, but for rigid stylings of gender to fall apart. They did for you. Momentarily. Maybe when you think about them, you might think that's its acceptable for you to "feel pretty." It undoes the link between gender and sexuality -- and allows for the acceptance of the expression of many kinds of identities. And it undoes the "unnaturalness" of anything and makes you see how invested institutions and people are in the policing of that - of how one expresses oneself, who one loves, who one desires. This was a beautiful response. Great engagement with Wolf, and thinking through all in relation to your own questions.